Friday, June 29, 2012

a heavy heart

the loss of a child is such a unimaginable thing...
if you have been a reader for awhile you know about the tragedy that struck my family a few years ago, four years ago today to be exact. we lost a beautiful baby, my niece shelby, who had only lived a short five months before she left us for home.

talking about sad or very personal issues are something i shy away from - it hurts my heart to hear of anyones struggles, especially when it involves a child, but my heart is heavy today and shelby will never be forgotten.

rowan was two months old when shelby passed and i took it hard - hard because i couldn't possibly imagine going through what her mother was experiencing and hard because shelby was a part of my heart too. zoe however was old enough to grasp what happened and took it hard, when we experienced the second blow of shelby's father committing suicide, we thought we would never recover. she was old enough to understand but i promise not ready to process.

eventually we pick up the pieces and we mask the ones we can't, but we never forget. so today we are sending up hugs and kisses to shelbypaige and prayers out to her mommy, one of my best friends in the world. we will never be over, or under, or around what happened but we can sure move forward through the best memories with that sweet baby. rip little angel!

10 comments:

melissa rohr said...

oh my gosh, so sad. (hits me hard because my daughters name is Shelby). She is def. looking down on all of you.

melissa rohr said...

This made me sob. I can't imagine how this must feel, even 4 years after the fact. My heart goes out to you and your family.

melissa rohr said...

This just breaks my heart!! I can't even imagine how hard something like this would be to go through. Hugs and prayers to everyone that loved that beautiful little girl!!

melissa rohr said...

Wow...what a horrible loss. there really are no words...

melissa rohr said...

Oh my gosh, my heart goes out to you and your family. I couldn't imagine how that would feel.
My Uncle's daughter passed away last year at 18 months. Ruby was about 6 months at the time and it took a toll on me too. Life is so precious.
I wish I could give you a hug today.

melissa rohr said...

So, so sad. I'm sorry. ((hugs))

melissa rohr said...

Oh how sad. I am so very sorry for your family. That just breaks my heart. Just this month I lost our baby to an ectopic pregnancy. My life has been turned upside down and my heart aches every day. Its something so terrible we can't imagine. I hope your family is able to heal with each passing day.

melissa rohr said...

Wow. I can't even imagine. Many prayers for you and the family. It's the kind of thing you need a constant reminder of strength and comfort because like you said, you don't ever really get over it. ((hugs))

melissa rohr said...

it is so hard, especially when you have a little one. i had to sleep on the floor next to rowan for months after it happened :(

melissa rohr said...

Rest in peace beautiful Shelby.